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Monday, March 4, 2013

What is Holding me Back?

What is Holding me Back?

Time for a little introspection here.
I just applied to win a scholarship for an online program
and one of the questions was
"What's holding you back from your dreams, goals, and best self?"

As I thought about that, I really had to do some soul searching.
I'm sort of a go-getter, even if a senior citizen go-getter. 
When I first began to paint I put it all out there, even when I didn't know where "out there" was.
I wish I'd started 40 years ago, but I'm making up for lost time.
But I am where I am in life, grandkids, illness and all, 
so I have to look forward and not backwards as I push forward. 

But what's holding me back? I ask myself again.
Fear is the one thing that holds me back.
Afraid I'm not as good as everybody else.
Afraid I really can't do this.
Get thee behind me fear.
But I do go on, even if fearful of the outcome.
After all, it is just paint, not brain surgery.
I can always start over tomorrow.  And I do!

I'm also not the traditional artist, because I love the marketing end of being an artist.
I love learning about social media and how to use it, 
how to create and use a blog,
how to create and promote a website,
how to approach a gallery,
how to promote a show.

It's all fun to me!

I was in retail for a long time so I guess that's where that love comes from.

I've always been creative and have had several creative endeavors.
But NOTHING has eaten me up like painting.

I think about it all the time.
I work at it almost every day.
I enjoy even the bad days.
But sometimes I doubt myself and any ability I may or may not have.
I guess most artists struggle with the lizard.
But I keep making plans, practicing, and showing up everyday
in some form or fashion.

I am not a chicken!

But I can paint one.

"Watching You Watching Me"
is an acrylic on a 12" x 12" panel

$100 + $10 shipping

Click here to purchase

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Ghent, Kentucky, United States
I'm a nature artist and I love to paint old barns, rivers and lakes, trees and fence rows and flowers. I work almost daily. You can purchase paintings by contacting me at and there is also a tab across the top of my blog for available paintings and one for small paintings with buy now buttons. You can also purchase through my Etsy shop using the name of Fine Nature Art. . Thank you so much for stopping by.