What is Holding me Back?
Time for a little introspection here.
I just applied to win a scholarship for an online program
and one of the questions was
"What's holding you back from your dreams, goals, and best self?"
As I thought about that, I really had to do some soul searching.
I'm sort of a go-getter, even if a senior citizen go-getter.
When I first began to paint I put it all out there, even when I didn't know where "out there" was.
I wish I'd started 40 years ago, but I'm making up for lost time.
But I am where I am in life, grandkids, illness and all,
so I have to look forward and not backwards as I push forward.
But what's holding me back? I ask myself again.
Fear is the one thing that holds me back.
Afraid I'm not as good as everybody else.
Afraid I really can't do this.
Get thee behind me fear.
But I do go on, even if fearful of the outcome.
After all, it is just paint, not brain surgery.
I can always start over tomorrow. And I do!
I'm also not the traditional artist, because I love the marketing end of being an artist.
I love learning about social media and how to use it,
how to create and use a blog,
how to create and promote a website,
how to approach a gallery,
how to promote a show.
It's all fun to me!
I was in retail for a long time so I guess that's where that love comes from.
I've always been creative and have had several creative endeavors.
But NOTHING has eaten me up like painting.
I think about it all the time.
I work at it almost every day.
I enjoy even the bad days.
But sometimes I doubt myself and any ability I may or may not have.
I guess most artists struggle with the lizard.
But I keep making plans, practicing, and showing up everyday
in some form or fashion.
I am not a chicken!
But I can paint one.
"Watching You Watching Me"
is an acrylic on a 12" x 12" panel
$100 + $10 shipping
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